A Level of Self Acceptance

After a week of beating myself up mentally. I have come to a level of self acceptance. I am not okay with where I am in fitness and weightloss but I realize that I am on the right track. Two years ago I could barely walk around the block and I would get winded walking up the 12 steps to the post office so this is just another leg of the journey that may take a little more effort to get thru. Thank you so much everyone for your encouragement. I will carry on!

Swim Suit: My new swim suit is still not here! So another week of gym shorts and tank in the pool. My problem is that I have built up this suit to be a healer of fatness. I am think I am going to be sorely dissappointed when I try it on! Listen for the shrieks for I am sure you shall here them.

Food: Having pretzel withdrawls and I can't stop eating watermelon. I have decided that all the sodium in pretzels is not good for me! My usual snack is pretzels in the morning and in the afternoon. I love love love pretzels. My mouth was watering yesterday and I thought I was going to pass out from the withdrawls but managed to have a only 1 snack of pretzels. They sit in the break room and taunt me with their delicious salty crunchiness. Today I am going the whole way...NO PRETZELS. Now that I read that it is funny because I use to feel that way about lots of food. Now I have two vices...pretzels and cereal....I have come along way from a woman that use to sit down and eat the industrial size bag of M&Ms in one sitting. Matter of fact I could eat industrial size bags of LOTS of things, Cheese Nips, Bacon Crackers, Pork Rinds, Chicken and Biscuit Crackers....hmmmm I guess I can see why I once weight 289 pounds. I still have the huge appetite...nothing changed there...I just fill me up with things I can eat LOTS of.

Well time to go to swimming! I read an article about doing the freestyle...hope I can remember all that stuff. The poor lifeguard tries to give me instruction...I think I am a lost cause.